Hello hello hahaha..
Well i've been busy lately lot's of thing's goin on..lot's of agenda happen well nothing much..
Look after my relation is ruin up i stand up thanks to mimi and siti cos they always there for me when i need..I/ve crying a lot since the past 2 months.I cried cried and cried...I dont have any apetite to eat, cant sleep well cant do anything until i have to relt on my sleeping pills..Well thing's changed in a few second's..Im back to my life..Well being single is good cos i have no commitments no any one and make me easier to move and im back on track now..Weee im trying to be happy even though im not..But what is the point waiting for some1 that never turn back to you..
Is really hard and im still trying to accept the fact this things happen to me very fast since im not ready yet to face anything..It took me a very long time to heal back .The last relation i had was 3 years ago but is not this bad cos i've been surrender and give my soul to this person...It's like a thousand arrow fly and attack me in one time..I fall because of my fault..If i knew this thinhga happen i would nt give my soul to himmm..
Naaa pain is always pain to me..But i have to fight it back now..
Relation's??
Ermm Good question to me..
No no no at the moment cos in my heart there is 1 only him my no2..yea im stupid waiting for him although i tell the rest im stop hoping..But u cant lie to your heart rite..?Being a gay is not easy to be. Is not easy to all society and communnity to accept us for who we are..The biggest and worse nite mare is our family..I have diffrent case and scenario now..All my family and friends know who am i..! And i dont care what the rest of the people will talk about me ..At least im being honest to my self,my fren and my family..At least when iget up form the bed every morning i feel happy for who am i...
Well stop about this.Lot's of plan coming up lots of event's to attend july 1-3 will be in kl to meet up iqwal hafiz..There is gonna be a program with the fans club..And on the 10-15 july meeting up jenniffer my new boss who is handling zav case in doing all promotion and recording..Ermm kinda hard now helping people.
But what ever i've done is all sincere from my bottom of my heart..After all this his dream.He want this so i fullfill his wish..I dont know i mite be dead by 2moro.lIfe is hard and difficult.Is up to us how to face it every day..On july 23 to aug24 hopefully i can fly to london..Naa just visiting my fosters.After all they look after me very well now they even invited me to stay over.And on september 21-oct 15 hope i can fly to united states and canada..I just want to explore while i still have a chance an while im not attached wit any1 else now..Is all a matter of time..Hope after zav recording i can migrate to any country that i like..Looking forward to china,australia,europe or maybe south africa ...Not easy to deal with this ya but i;m so so lucky cos i have lot;s of friends mostly half the world..The fact being honest to evey1..
Ermmm what else.
Im composing a french and english song for my fren hoping he can sing it hehehe
Thanks toi madame Marquite for helping me a lot .She flew all the way from france just to help me to compose 2 line of lyrics.I just cant thanks to her as she help me a lot's.
Anyway gonna updates again all my routine form time to time..!
Remember joshua honest is a key to success..stop lying and stop being hypocrite..!
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